Trust and Paranoia

The call week never came. Stupid of me to name that week of something as important as what I was expecting. Still jobless. Although there was a call for an interview and there was a job offer (of which I'm not really into), I'm still waiting on the companies I want to work for. The waiting is unbearable but I have no choice but to do so. I just pray and stop being paranoid. That's what happens - being paranoid - when you have someone you know who's applying in the same company and position and she gets a call and you don't haha. But like she said, just pray and we will all get what we deserve.

This company that accepted me I asked to wait for a week since I had to weigh my options, not that I had any. I'm waiting for other options to arise, that is. I really don't see myself in that industry (cargo shipping, freight, logistics industry) even though the experience might be good since it's a start up company and the organizational chart has only 2 positions filled as of the moment; and they haven't registered with the SEC yet. So there. I want that to be my last resort when other opportunities do not come up. They must come up by Wednesday or Thursday morning!

I already started getting the mandatory requirements for getting employed. Will get the last one on Monday. I'm getting ready to be employed and it seems the employers aren't ready to get me. Patience, patience, prayers.

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I got to watch the so-called must-watch movie of the season/year/all-time 2 times. I don't even need to name that movie for you already know what it is. The poster says it anyways:


I'm happy that I did not read the novel. I'm sure it would be a bummer if I did (as it was what I always felt after watching a movie adaptation of a novel, save for a few). So what did I think of the movie? I thought it was okay. The fight scene was good (I held my breath a few times the first time I watched it), the baseball scene was also good (Alice looked great and the music was awesome). Apart from that, it was mostly bad acting and bad effects. But it was okay. The movie was time-constricted (this happens to all movie adaptations of novels, I'm sure you agree with me) but again, it was okay. In my opinion, if not for the 2 scenes I mentioned, The movie would have sucked big time. Bella looked good as well but her 2 front teeth had been emphasized unintentionally, I think. Anyways, it popped every time she talked.

I give it 3 stars out of 5. The soundtrack was great.

Anyways, I got to see my blockmates again because of that (thanks tine!) and we had a good time. I was forced to go to a bazaar where my friend was selling stuff. We didn't buy anything, I guess we went there for moral support lol. Here we were outside waiting for the movie:

The birthday girl deserves 2 pictures here! The boyfriend of my friend, the law student jec, had no pictures so just imagine. More thanks to the birthday girl for going all the way south (one of the few people I know who had the courage to go down south whilst we south people go there without - maybe some - hesitation)!!!

The moon looked cool that night. It was smiling down on all of us, not just us friends but everyone. Or maybe sad face-ing on other people in other areas where Venus and Jupiter were on the opposite side. I don't want to put a picture HAHA.

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I don't want to talk about my job hunting escapades anymore. I might jinx it and it just makes me paranoid and uneasy.

I'm getting more and more bored. I have nothing to do anymore. I need to get a job! I have to call next week the call week as I have a deadline for a job offer by Thursday. Okay i'll just stop right there, uneasiness coming.

Trust.

Shut your piehole!

Argh. Can't write when it's noisy (noisy T.V. with cousin watching). I realize I can't focus anymore when it's not quiet and I blame that to my thesis. Well, except when the noise is music, or my music rather (mp3s stored on my laptop).

Anyway, I'm torn.

Torn between two job opportunities which I am both interested in. Two job opportunities which I think would be a great starting point for my budding career in finance. Two job opportunities that would both fulfill my needs - money (which is the root of all material fulfillment!). Two job opportunities that will push me into a new lifestyle. Two job opportunities, two choices, a win-win situation. Bam!

I think.

First off, the first of the two job opportunities (cousin stop bothering me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

First off, the first of the two job opportunities I'm not really sure if I got accepted since I'm still waiting for the call that would tell me and it's the 2nd week already. I believe this is the call week! The week I would get the call. Not just for this job opportunity but for the second one as well. What is up with companies telling you that they would contact you in a specific time which they never do? At least for another week.

For the second job opportunity (I like repeating those two words over and over, don't you think?), they said that I was okay and that they were seriously considering me. Thank you Lord. They would also call me this week for the "package" for my employment.

This is the call week! Now, CALL!

But like I said, I'm torn between two job opportunities. Both good, both ideal. I'm done thinking and I'm just waiting and praying.

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I got to watch a movie in a theater once again! I was with the bum club (i.e. Sarah, Mark, Java and Benson - some were absent) and we got together to watch a movie and hung out.

We watched Burn After Reading starring John Malkovich, George Clooney and Brad Pitt, among others. The poster is below:


Hmm, what can I say about this movie? I believe it takes a while to appreciate this movie. It's senselessly funny and perfectly true. Does it sound ironic or paradoxic? I'll try another one: Stupidly smart. Frustratingly satisfying. Like I said, it takes a while to appreciate. Well, at least for me.

Throughout the course of the movie, I was confused and frustrated to the point that I just laughed it out, but it IS funny. Just weird and it makes you think if the money was well worth it. Even I don't know the answer to that.

Strangely, I can't not recommend you to watch it nor can I give it 5 stars and push you into watching it. It's all confusing, really.

"What a clusterfuck." - the best description of the movie (it came from it too)

One sure funny thing that I noticed as we watched the movie was that majority of the audience were couples! They were literally scattered all over the theater and there was even an old, grandma/grandpa couple watching!

Anyway, I'm all confused. I'll let you decide for yourself with regard to this movie but I can say for sure that the money I paid for was not worth it but at the same time, it didn't feel like a loss to burn that money for this clusterfuck. (And I said I didn't know the answer to this)

Now I know how to get to Greenhills by commuting! Yeah! *horizons expanding*

So I got to hang out with friends again and I'll be hanging out with more friends in the coming days (birthday treat yeah!).

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Christmas is coming. We already have Christmas decorations in our house though they do not turn it on at night yet. Maybe in December, I dunno.

Christmas is coming and I don't have the money boo.

I'm seriously considering working part-time at oDesk to earn some cash (in U.S. Dollars. ) to spend for Christmas and other things like gimmicks. I think it's pretty easy to earn here but I can't yet. The account I'm supposed to make where they would deposit my paychecks need some identification that I'm unable to supply. Not for another 2 weeks. With the deductions like fees, I'd have to earn some significant amount first before I withdraw it to save on getting more fees (i.e. per withdrawal) but it's all minimal and puts a little dent to my future paychecks.

I'll probably go for this if my job starts next year.

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My economics high school teacher died. We went to her wake a while ago. She looked different from what I remember of her as well as in her picture. She really thinned up. But then cancer does that to everyone who has it. Especially when it's level 4. It was sad but I know that she is in a Great Place and is happy now. A strange reunion for us former high school classmates/friends.

I re-read Veronika Decides to Die (strange coincidence) and both these events told me, and now I'm telling it to you, to live! If we have to pretend that we will die the next day, then we must do so to make us realize how much there is in living life and doing whatever we want to. (I know, it's easier said than done) I believe that my former high school teacher, Mrs. Marlene Agustin, lived a happy life. It being evident in our classroom sessions which were always full of life and her treatment to us, much like a mom. She had been battling it for 12 years.

On another point, we should all be crazy/insane! Do what is considered taboo! Nobody wants to be like everyone else, right? Sure, we are in many ways but we should strive to have something that would separate us and make us stand out. If we become like everyone else and stick to routine, afraid of being on the uneven ground of unfamiliarity and risk, I think that would really drive us crazy, and not the crazy type I am talking about.

Who cares if you're a little weird? I'm weird!

Let's all be weird! But be careful or you might cross the bridge and be creepy instead.