It's been a long time since I last wrote here. I guess the urge to share my thoughts come from moments of melancholy (I just don't like to put sadness here, too sad to match what I'm feeling and too negative). That's the feeling I have when I get the urge to write. As you can see, it's been quite a while since it happened. Maybe it did happen back then, it just was not as abundant as now.
So what have I been up to? I have been working. Earning money. Taking my baby steps in the real world. Learning to spend wisely and indulge at the same time. Getting and not getting all of my heart's desires. Living my life to fullest extent possible when I am not at work.
I feel like I have changed so much already; from this kid who used to just want to pass every exam, to be a Dean's Lister, to worry how to get home from attending a party, to drink and throw up in the beach, to march to get my diploma, to take the FX every school day which I have done the past 4 years or less, to stop myself from buying Starbuck's every time I pass by it when going to school because I won't have any money left, to the sleepless nights finishing papers, especially the thesis, to nights I prayed to God to help us pass, to the fun dinners and movie nights, to sleepovers, to download series so I can watch them in the weekend, to hang out in various parts of the campus to pass the time, to run to different classrooms to campaign, to run to different classrooms so as not to be late, to wait for my professors to give me that deserving and high marks, to everything.
I'm happy that I don't miss being a bum too much. I guess I know that I am more productive now than before since I didn't really get out much during my bummer days. I should change this blog's theme already since I am not a bummer anymore. But I won't. This was where I was for some of the time when I was transitioning from a bum to a yuppie. This is one of my foundations.
Anyway, I'm okay with working. I get to move around. Although the burden is getting heavier and heavier, even as I get better with work, I'm still happy! Like I said, I get to earn money.
So what have I been up to? I have been working. Earning money. Taking my baby steps in the real world. Learning to spend wisely and indulge at the same time. Getting and not getting all of my heart's desires. Living my life to fullest extent possible when I am not at work.
I feel like I have changed so much already; from this kid who used to just want to pass every exam, to be a Dean's Lister, to worry how to get home from attending a party, to drink and throw up in the beach, to march to get my diploma, to take the FX every school day which I have done the past 4 years or less, to stop myself from buying Starbuck's every time I pass by it when going to school because I won't have any money left, to the sleepless nights finishing papers, especially the thesis, to nights I prayed to God to help us pass, to the fun dinners and movie nights, to sleepovers, to download series so I can watch them in the weekend, to hang out in various parts of the campus to pass the time, to run to different classrooms to campaign, to run to different classrooms so as not to be late, to wait for my professors to give me that deserving and high marks, to everything.
I can't say that I have removed all of these from my system entirely. I still watch series (I don't download anymore, I just stream - www.salloumi.com - fast and easy!), I still commute, though I do not take the FX anymore, I now indulge myself to hearty dinners (I don't miss Starbuck's anymore, but now I think I want one), I run from one cubicle to another, I still chill-walk, when the opportunity arises (I know it's not up there). And one good thing now that was so scarce back then? I HAVE MONEY. =)
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I'm happy that I don't miss being a bum too much. I guess I know that I am more productive now than before since I didn't really get out much during my bummer days. I should change this blog's theme already since I am not a bummer anymore. But I won't. This was where I was for some of the time when I was transitioning from a bum to a yuppie. This is one of my foundations.
Anyway, I'm okay with working. I get to move around. Although the burden is getting heavier and heavier, even as I get better with work, I'm still happy! Like I said, I get to earn money.
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My birthday's almost up! I'm gonna be an adult. I'm gonna be 21.
My birthday is on a Friday. Friday the 13th. And it's my 21st. The day I get to be a man should defy the odds of the "luck" this day is tagged to. I don't want to celebrate, actually. The "man debut" just shows that us men are 3 years behind women in terms of maturity. Is that something I should celebrate about? It's already a Friday the 13th, dammit!
I hope my mom buys me an Ipod Touch (she's currently in the US vacationing) and I hope she doesn't ask me to pay for it.
Anyway, that's it. I'd choose college friends over workmates for leisure. Haha.
My birthday is on a Friday. Friday the 13th. And it's my 21st. The day I get to be a man should defy the odds of the "luck" this day is tagged to. I don't want to celebrate, actually. The "man debut" just shows that us men are 3 years behind women in terms of maturity. Is that something I should celebrate about? It's already a Friday the 13th, dammit!
I hope my mom buys me an Ipod Touch (she's currently in the US vacationing) and I hope she doesn't ask me to pay for it.
Anyway, that's it. I'd choose college friends over workmates for leisure. Haha.
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